must write reaction to Fog of War. actually a great documentary. am serious when i say i want the soundtrack. mcnamara is impressive. oversaw vietnam and put seat belts in cars. don't want to write this reaction paper. want to sleep. and eat grapes.

i love how the video is "by macnamara, kennedy, castro, and nixon." heaven help us.

tomorrow i only have one of my three classes. awesome. except that one class has a midterm. but it's all gonna be okay. chapel today was great. i really appreciated the admonition, and the reminder that this Gospel is not of ourselves, but of God.

i have fall break plans! i can't wait for the break and for the serious girl time to be had. but before then, two midterms, a final, and a research paper...

i hate how the days just run into each other sometimes. i can't remember what i did on each day because they're all so busy and rushed.

it's been one of those weeks.

but now it's thursday evening -- or friday morning, i guess -- and i'm pretty much rejoicing at the weekend. it will be busy. of course, right? but filled with good things, and a much more focused attitude on my part. the most important things can't be the first to go when it gets busy. i've got to be more serious about that in my own life. and this week proved that to me.

it was great seeing andi tonight. he stopped by for a really short amount of time. that'll have to change soon. we've all got to get together!

good night.

i'm almost better! yay! thank you Jesus! and thank you guys for lifting me up in prayer.

it's been a crazy weekend. friday night getting random stuff around the apartment done. grocery shopping. laundry. saturday, not going on the canoe trip but feeling too sick to actually be disappointed (which is kind of a relief, who wants disappointment?). saturday evening, caedmon's call concert. excellent. amazing. nostalgic. it was like a big huge jam session. the bass player is insane. according to cliff young, he's one of the best five bass players in the world. i believe it. and he's insane. he would be jamming in between songs, playing his bass, and doing this freaky zombie walk at the same time. saturday night, seven gospel choir girls sleeping in our living room. part of their retreat, hard core get to know each other weekend. for those of you confused folks, i'm not in gc anymore. they just needed more apartments. sunday morning (oh wait, that's today) leaving for church at 7:30am, being in charge of the high school worship band practice and feeling totally incapable/ridiculous/old while doing it, then going to work in nursery (and actually, no babies showed up, so i got to talk to Dora, my coworker, and enjoy peace and quiet instead), then church, then staying after church to help set up stuff. returning here. doing some homework. four o'clock wcf worship band practice. 6:30 prayer. 7:30 wcf. got back at ten. it's now eleven. i've got to read to chapters, and then i will ignore the rest of my geology until tomorrow. i'm beat. i'm THIS close to not doing the other reading as well. hmmm....it's a thought. can i trust myself to do it tomorrow morning?

either way, good night. oh ps. read isaiah 58.

So I'm sick. And I've already skipped one class and chapel today. I slept until eleven, and then woke up and couldn't breathe, but I'm doing better now. I'm wondering if I should skip geology too, which is in an hour. On the one hand, I'm on a roll. On the other...I don't know. My head's too foggy to think about the other. And I need to feel better by tonight when we have our first OFFICIAL dsg (discipleship small group) meeting! yay! Have I mentioned how excited Jenna and I are for our girls? We have all sophomores, one second semester junior, and one new transfer sophomore. We're excited. They want challenge. CHALLENGE. And that makes me excited.

I don't think I'm going to geology. I just decided. I have two meetings tonight; that'll be enough. Please pray for me, if you think about it. I feel yucky.

Darn it. Kevin tagged me. =] It's only a bad thing because I had to think up five quirky habits of mine, and could only think of one. Thanks to the help of my loving roommate Sophia, I now have way more than I need.

1. I eat things like skittles in even numbers.

2. I pop my hip. Really loud.

3. I can't sleep without covers. If it's really hot, I'll just stick my feet out the bottom, but I just can't fall asleep without covers.

4. When I get really nervous, there's a searing pain from the tip of my middle finger all the way to my shoulder.

5. I sometimes sing my words.

Now it's my turn. I tag my sister Rachel, Charisse Armstrong, Austin Graff, Jeremy Burk, and Joyce Li. Have fun.

quick update. it will be friday in eleven minutes! yesss!! this week has gone by really quickly. it's been marked by some very good times. i know it's dorky, but i really love my classes sometimes, and wednesday's foreign policy class was just really good. wednesday evening our dsg (discipleship small group) got together for the first time. jenna and i are leading five girls, and i can already tell that it will be amazing. jenna and i are both excited. we love you girls!! the weather literally "turned" today -- just two days ago it was in the 90s, and today is was cool. there's a cold rain right now. it's fun seeing the leaves turn color. jade and i went running today. the prairie path is so pretty. i'm excited about helping with my church's youth band. i don't know, a lot of great things are happening lately, and it's just been a real blessing on my life.

this weekend should be fun. mu kappa boat trip, saturday night! woo hoo! i was hoping to hang out with kevin and dj and phia this weekend, but it doesn't look like it's going to work out. i need to go to bed. only six minutes til friday! and anyone who accesses our class site -- fred and jen's wedding pictures are beautiful. check them out.

one paper down, one to go. i'm going to take some notes on the book now and write the paper tomorrow. only two and a half pages, but it's dense material. oh and the paper i already finished...pure crap. oh yeah. and a page too much of it, too.

dinner tonight was a much bigger production than it was intended to be. but everyone who came brought their own contribution, so it ended up being the most fun dinner i've had in a while. we had french, chinese, american. thanks, everyone, for helping out. to tell you the truth, they're all still here in the living room, doing homework. we just had so much fun together that we thought we'd make the evening last as long as possible. i'm going to go out soon and begin making chai lattes for everyone.

i really do want to do well on these papers. i just wish they weren't due so close together. i hate doing half jobs.

just came back from lunch. they served it outside, for some reason. dessert was crazy -- a kiddie pool filled with tons of ice cream and toppings, and everyone getting what they wanted. from the comments i heard, it was basically every guy's dream. i remember that we had ice cream troughs once during senior year. huge amounts of ice cream, and everyone dug in. great fun, except it was just around the time of bfa's mono epidemic...

two papers to write this weekend! woo hoo! mu kappa budget meeting this afternoon! woo hoo! and getting interviewed for the Record this afternoon for some article about international students! woo hoo! except i hate to tell the girl that i'm actually an american citizen, so she might be hunting me down for no good reason.

if you think about it, please pray for me. nothing big i guess. just these papers. but i'd like to do well, and i hate doing a half job, but that's kind of what happens when they're due at the same time. i need some serious inspiration for writing them, and fluidity in writing and vocabulary and all that. thanks.

hi everyone.

it's one of those times when all the choices come crashing down and decisions must be made, except that i hate making them and always have and probably always will. i feel like there are things so much bigger than me going on, and every decision could impact people i've never even met. and at the same time i don't want to rush the future but it seems to be rushing at me.

i'm in the last chapter of aforementioned sluggish-as-mud book, and wouldn't you know it but i went and hit reader's wall or something. so when this small post is finished, i'll be back at it, and soon i'll be finished, and then i'll go to bed. i can't wait until autumn comes. i think it might be my favorite season.

"prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. as obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. but just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written: 'be holy, because i am holy.'" 1 peter 1:13-16